Directions:
1. Put your iPod, iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS
4. Pick ten Random friends who like music as much as you do and tag them.


1. IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Rent - Jonathan Larson

2. HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Remix Restless - Within Temptation

3. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
I'm All Alone - Spamalot (Damn, depressing much?)

4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Hallucination - Labyrinth

5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE PURPOSE?
Lay All Your Love On Me - Mamma Mia (Wow, I must be a real slut.)

6. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
I Hate You - Rivulets and Violets (I'm basically just a mean person.)

7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Highway to Hell - Quiet Riot (...Geez, guys. Tell me how you REALLY feel.)

8. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
She Sells Sanctuary - The Cult (....what?)

9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT A LOT?
Dance of the Sandwitches - Tempest (Yeah, those witches sure like to dance....)

11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Sawtooth Baby - Plid (Yeah, they ARE all biters, so it makes sense....)

12. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Morpheus - The Surf Kings (Because...uh...they're the lady of my...dreams? Wow, pulled that together nicely.)

13. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Between Us - Tempest (...this really isn't a happy song. o_o'

14. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Ocean Soul - Nightwish

15. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Flesh for Fantasy - Nu Pagadi (OH, SO TRUE. *lustlustlust*)

16. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Act of Demon or the Work of God - Yasushi Ishii (Uh...what?)

17. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST
Shout 2000 - Disturbed (It's true. Sometimes I scream when I'm driving, just to make my ears ring.)

18. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Gone to California - Pink (Not actually a fear of mine, as I call it home.... Gone to Tennessee, now THAT makes me pee myself.)

19. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
I Put A Spell On You - Marilyn Manson (Shit, now you know!)

20. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Hold My Hand - Hootie &the Blowfish (It's 'cause I'm just a teddy bear.)

21. SONG THEY WILL PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
When I'm Gone - Eminem (XDDD SO FUCKING FUNNY. Don't cry, babes, just carry on, rejoice.)

22. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
The 13th Struggle - Yoko Shimomura (Axel's theme song! So appropriate. <3)

If you're over 18, that is.

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I wish it wasn't so awkward to just tell strangers how beautiful they are. On a whim, I've been putzing around dating sites, and most of the people are just...you know, kinda there.... And then sometimes I see someone who not only catches their face, but also their personality in a picture, and I want very badly to just send them a message saying, "Hi there. You don't know me, but I think you're beautiful. Have a great day!"

Is that crossing a boundary somewhere? I feel these people should know how lovely they are.

My goodness, how things have changed.... It's nearly three in the morning, mid-November in the interesting year of 2009, and I'm feeling nostalgic. Recent events have made me consider all the changing I've done since graduating high school, and I'm rather amused by where I've come to be. I had a lot of friends in high school, and it's funny how sometimes people stick with those friends through thick and thin, for the rest of their lives.... I think there are enough, perhaps, to count on one hand, that I still speak with. I still have enough fingers left over to flip the rest of them off....

But no, I'm not feeling bitter. I'm feeling incredibly lucky. An ex-everything of mine sent me a letter a while back that was intended to break me--foolish thing that she was, it rather backfired on her. (She should probably do more research before saying what she said, but no matter--I imagine the narcissism rather got in the way of that research.) I thought of all of this because I recently found that her nightmares, which plagued her since our friendship, have gotten worse. I spent some time wondering if I should offer some genuine help, or if I should taunt her and rag on her for the fine Jungian mess she's gotten herself into....

And then I realized...I didn't have to. I was under no obligation to help her sort her subconscious out, and it was in no way a good idea to poke fun at her for what scares her. I'm feeling rather content, somewhat pitying, and faintly of the mindset that I'm pleased to not be part of that life anymore.

I love who I've become, and the community into which I've grown. My friends now are infinitely healthier than my friends down in high school were.... This is my new family. I would stay with them for the rest of my life. I want to raise their children with them, laugh at them when I hear them having sex, and make weird faces when they serve me strange food. I'm so proud of them for being better people than the ones I used to know, and I'm proud of myself for finding them.

High school brought financial insecurities, self confidence issues, and developing sociopathy--now, in college, insecurities are opened up, talked about, and laid to peaceful rest. Self confidence is sculpted, improved, and made beautiful. Sociopaths are left in the dust. We don't want any of that.

I'm discovering that I love my skin. I'm discovering that other people love my skin too, whatever shape it's in. I'm discovering that I have power over people, and influence.

I'm discovering that I want to run a small business with my friends. I want to explore my sexuality until I'm too old to play without breaking a hip. I want to push the world to change.

I'm not going to let someone else tell me what gender I am. I'm not going to let someone else stand in front of me and try to break me. I'm not going to feel bad about my background, just to make someone unstable feel better. I'm not going to let someone else's finances ruin my day.

I will never again let someone break me so utterly that I cannot be fixed.

I will always seek to be as giving as I can, within my means, and I will never let nervous people convince me I'm acting on pride.

I really wanted to thank the Universe at large for making me loved, fed, sheltered, and warm. To my new friends, and to the good memories with my old friends, and to good riddance of the nasty ones.

To my future, and to yours. <3

I finally joined Twitter. XD I tried to hold out, but I just got bored of hearing how fun people were having, stalking their friends and idols, and I thought.... "Gee, y'know, I deserve to be stalked too!"

So go ahead and stalk me, if you like. I'm AtticFish, and sometimes I say amusing things. You'll probably hear a lot about what I want to draw....